A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE: philosophical essays

Love Essays Book 10 · Adrian G Dumitru
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And what if one day … after stop loving someone that you liked so, so much … you decide to replace that big whole from your soul with loving all the people from the timeline of your life?!


Today i believe that to understand the life itself we need to experience … love … in whatever form it might appear to us.

It sounds weird, or even as a total nonsense … but in the end … following the paths of life …. I always realized that everything comes by itself.

Not so long time ago, before becoming 40 …. I heard lots of strange ideas about the change is happening in man’s perspective about life … the next second he comes to this age.

In fact … the truth is that only 2 versions worth to be mentioned … and i saw that at all my friends that had this age.

One theory was that we start to have all types of medical problems … and the other one was that the man starts to be obsessed by love … love stories …. and all the women from the timeline of his life.



I never had medical problems in my life … so i totally ignored the first theory ….and on another hand, working in sales for more than 20 years … i met thousands of ladies … but never had the intention to cheat my wife.

So … i totally ignored both theories, but just few days before becoming 40 … a very beautiful lady … appeared in my life.

She was the most unexpected person i could dream that i would start a love story with … but … it happened.

The theory was right … or at least one of it.

I fell in love … with that amazing soul … and i started to write all my feelings and everything related to us.

I wrote so much … that one day i realized that i published 10 books carrying the word … love … inside of the title.

But … same as any other story from the history of the human being … my love story had a beginning, the story itself …. and the end.

Today … looking back in time, i see just the 10 books i wrote … but i would not like to read them again.

Never …

In my last book about love stories … “Loving, but not understanding where the love goes” … the last 2 essays i wrote tell everything it was in my heart and soul … “I miss you a lot, but i don’t want you back in my life! Never again!”

… and “Awakening can be obtained at the end of the love story!”.

I left the love story dissatisfied of all happened … but still … i was chasing for love.

Getting back into her arms … was useless.

I knew it … and even if i lied myself for such a long time … she was the same as my wife … a shrew … or at least this is


how i saw both of them.

I decided to let my life continue … near my family, totally forgetting the love story …. but still not ignoring my huge desire for … love.

The smaller kid ….told me one day while arguing with my wife … “ You are not allowed to leave us. You are our parents and you don’t have the right to do that.”

Ignoring those words … was equal with betrayal.

…. A huge one.

So i remained near my wife and kids … doing my duty, understanding the dharmic side of life … but still something was whispering me all the time …”love, love, love, love … love ….”

I thought i need to find another lady … but my wife was paying attention now to any small detail … so i could not repeat the love story i had with that crazy lady.

I was meditating a lot.

On the scene of my life, i met lots of other people in the same situation as myself … that ended the love story and …. somehow started to be in a relationship with themselves.

They discovered a new path …. the one of self love.

But i did not know anything about the subject … and not even wanted to bother becoming more profound and connected to myself.

I actually did not wanted to start a new relationship either …. with someone else … either with myself.

I knew i needed something else into my life… but did not understood the new path i need to follow.

And i continued … searching.

On and on …. and on.

One day … a year ago … while having a fire at one of my properties … a heart appeared on the roof of the building.

Everyone saw the heart … except myself.

Later on … i saw it in the pictures taken by the people that were there at the time.

Again …. I thought that i should find a new mistress and have a parallel life again … without my wife to find out.

But … i was wrong.

So … damn wrong.

Time passed and … and the russian-ukrainian war began … and i started to host lots of refugees.

There were people that needed unconditional love and support … and i somehow connected to the all of them … realizing that i can be in a weird love story with all those women coming from Ukraine.

They were ladies of different age and personality … but i loved having them into my life.

I somehow started to understand that even if i thought that being in love can have only 2 options … loving a soulmate …. or yourself … i finally saw a totally new path …. and that was being in a lovely relationship … practicing another type of love …. with anyone was appearing in my reality.

That of course … could not offend in any way my wife …. and also could not affect the marriage i had … but …

Yes …. It was … an amazing trick … and i just loved it.

I finally understood what Dalai Lama or Pope Francis were saying … about … unconditional love for all the people from this world.

Reading their books … i even had moments when i thought the 2 of them were idiots …. but i was the idiot one.

My marriage … was indeed karmic … having nothing to do with love … but my youngest son learnt me the meaning of … dharma.

My mistress … which even if i loved so, so much … but don’t even want to hear her name again … taught me … what love … means.

She was somehow a combination between karma and love … and saw her at the end of our love story more as a teacher …. than a soulmate.

Most probably i have totally different values as those 2 shrews … my wife and my mistress … but i am happy i met the ucrainian ladies.

The abstract love story i started with them …. all of them … no matter of age, personality, perspectives of life … was a much better path for continuing my life journey.

I finally understood that if i would know to connect to the people that appear on the timeline of my life … and love them unconditionally…. somehow that love that i was chasing so, so much … since i was a kid … will come back to me in infinite quantities.

I was looking for love … and i had to see the meaning of love story … from a totally different perspective.

But … now everything was clear to me.

I knew what i had to do … and which path to follow.

My expectation was as my wife to love me …. but she was a karmic character that i could not replace … or my mistresses to love me unconditionally…. but she was the teacher that made me realize what the concept of love … means.

My life journey … had to continue … and the ucrainian ladies showed me such a beautiful perspective … i never thought about.

I was glad … of this awakening moment.

So … loving you?! … loving me?! … or … simple loving any soul that appears in our lives?!

Well … maybe from my position where i am now … being in a love story with everyone … is probably the best scenario i could live.

Am glad i see things today … as that.

Might be your perception … or not.

Might sound as a total nonsense all what i am writing …. but maybe it will be much interesting to hear weird ideas … than the boring ones.

So … let the journey begin … and we will see if i succeed to really connect to my real self … so … that i can find the inspiration to express myself clear enough … that in the end you will try at least one time … this kind of abstract love story … being in love with all the people from your life.


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Sapphire Suzanne
August 20, 2024
"A profound exploration of marriage and love. Dumitru delves deep into the complexities of relationships, making this a must-read for anyone seeking to understand the nuances of marriage."
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Ibraheem Musa006
August 20, 2024
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru offers a fresh perspective on the challenges and joys of marriage. A must-read for those seeking to enrich their relationship
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Ajala Mujeeb
August 20, 2024
An eye-opening book that offers new perspectives on love and marriage. A great read for those who want to deepen their understanding of relationships
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About the author

I’ve started to write my first book at 16 … but then … realizing i could not publish it … i’ve abandoned the idea of being a … writer.

20 years later … i’ve started to write again … believing i will finally succeed … but i’ve failed one more time … not getting the success i was chasing for.

Another 5 years later … i’ve started one more time to write … but this time … more as a therapy.

It’s what i’ve defined as … self therapy.

I was analyzing and defining lots of weird ideas … that were a lot related to me … and my own soul.

I totally forgot that i was chasing for success.

I was simple writing my thoughts … in essays … becoming this way … maybe not a writer …. but what many define as … an essayist.

This is not a poet … and not a writer.

Or maybe is kind of a poet that is incapable of writing poetry … but is still expressing his thoughts … into a similar way … as a poet.

And is not a writer … cause have not the ability to write for too long time … about the same subject.

But maybe i am not an essayist… either.

I am just an ordinary person … that could be better defined … as a thinker.

Analyzing … and defining my life … practicing this process called … self therapy … i started to understand life … and the way to better paths which i should follow.

And i’ve wrote … and wrote … and wrote … realizing one day that i’ve published tens of books …. not really understanding how the hell I’ve succeeded doing that.

Today i dare to recommend writing … as a therapy.

I could even say … it’s a simple way of understanding who we are … but also a process that could help us … heal our souls.

I personally continue to … write.

It’s in fact … a non ending story that … at least for myself … will probably continue for the rest of my life.

But over all … i am glad … i am doing it.

I continue my philosophical journey … not being able to define myself for clear as a writer or an essayist… but …

Well …. most probably… i am on a good path.

And … i would dare to recommend to everyone … all what i am doing today.

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